#gettingtoknowthequantumself
On September 4th, 2017, I wrote:
"The moments following my dream were vibrant. I felt a hollow channel, conducting words from there to here, really just allowing them passage and staying out of the way. Today, all day, has been muted, as if to allow passage through time again, connecting that moment to this one. Reminding me that purpose thrives outside of conscious, and I don't know why but those words are extremely important for me and for what is to happen next."
Tonight, the 17th day of May, 2018, I am awake, late, contemplating two articles I have just read.
1: "Time as illusion" : https://qz.com/1279371/this-physicists-ideas-of-time-will-blow-your-mind/
2: "Self as illusion" : https://qz.com/1196408/scientists-studying-psilocybin-accidentally-proved-the-self-is-an-illusion/
Today was not a "golden" day like September 4th, which happens to be our wedding anniversary, while we're considering the marking of time's passage. I did not feel the same "entanglement." But I knew I would be up late. I did not know why.
It's possible that rather than waiting for my entangled days to arrive as a result of chance, I should do everything to seek the process by which the entanglement can be, not induced, but recognized.
I also wrote:
"There is a hint of anxiety, of the unknown future moments where I'll be stepping out of this mechanism and stepping back into the regular time stream, where my family waits for me. Will I remember? Will there be another eight years before I can commune with Dream again? Or can I bring the two time streams together, ushering in a new self to exist over top of the old as a mantle?"
The mechanism, Default Mode Network (DMN), is not the only consciousness the brain is capable of. Stepping out of it must be a more regular activity, one not left to chance.
Time streams...possibilities...illusions! The new self would begin to shred the construct altogether, thus taking whatever perceived, seemingly separate moments, and seeing them for what they are: our simultaneous participation in and defiance of Entropy.
Shackles, be removed. I need to take a look around this cave. The shadows aren't nearly as interesting as they used to be.
